LISTEN

How long can a person go

Without being heard,

Before it drives them mad?

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How long can a voice

Fade into nothing,

Until its host follows?

PROTAGONIST

As we where walking along the sandy road I asked him to “tell me something nice.”

Instantly my mind conjured up this idea of a ‘Great American Novel’ in which the protagonist recalls how ‘towards the end’ his ex used to often say: “tell me something nice.” That experience would then go on to inspire the protagonists growth, around which the novel’s plot revolved.

Honestly, what a load of bull shit.

I refuse to be some cliché of a girl who’s tragic story is for some reason best told from the perspective of a man. I refuse to have my pain be the catalyst for growth, rather then my wellness. My story isn’t somebody else thinking about ‘what I could have been’. It’s me being.

A DYING FLAME

Up above, the starts shone bright

With the only light to dim them:

A bonfire fading its way to a memory.

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When we danced in it’s dying glow

Time folded in on itself

And we kissed like brand new lovers.

ECO ANXIETY 1

When I told the therapist, I desperately hoped would work out, that I struggled with eco anxiety, she asked me to elaborate. 

So I told the her, that I couldn’t stop thinking about climate change, and that that years exceptionally hot summer was a constant reminder that things where getting worse. When that very first session was over she gave me an assignment. To tackle the anxiety about the globe heating up, I should look into getting an air conditioning unit.  

That therapist didn’t work out. 

ICARUS

Being too comfortable in the water 

I didn’t notice I was drowning: 

An Icarus, who dove too deep.

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Now I look up at the surface

Glistening with abandoned potential, 

Helpless as I wait for sleep.

KEEP WRITING

I never wanted to be the kind of poet that writes about being sad- or about being unlucky in love. I never wanted to be the kind of artist who helped to romanticise the things that are difficult enough, on their own, to escape. 

Oh, the magic I used to chase only to be able to put in down on paper later. Glowing oceans and turbulent seas, healthy friendships and self love. Those where the things I sought too romanticise. 

But now the magic has run out and all that’s left to do is keep writing.